Random friday

Last week S and I went out to dinner with my high school boyfriend and his wife. I have to say it was a pretty surreal experience. This was the guy that if you had asked me 6 months before I met S I would have told you that I was going to marry him. I was eighteen. It is amazing how time changes things. I sat there talking to him and his wife and realized that it never would have worked. There was too much drama involved in our relationship. I needed someone who would balance me out. I remember when he dumped me (for another girl) that he said that I would be engaged within 6 months. I was so mad! In fact it was less than that. I am glad for all the things that I learned when I dated him. He helped me to learn that I was worthwhile, not because I have a body but, because I have a mind. I really learned who I was and because of that I am the person  I am today. I can speak about self worth and what it really means to believe in yourself. I have to say Thanks to him for teaching me that and then letting me go so that I could be with the person I was really meant to be with! 

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Bug had her science fair this week. I have to say thanks to all those in the area who helped her with her project. She did a study on weather and whether it affects people's moods. This was a really fun little project for her and we had a lot of help. We handed out more than 30 journals to people at her school, in the neighborhood and in the general area. Everyone was really helpful and their contributions made a big difference in the results. THANKS EVERYONE! If any of you get a chance make sure you ask her about her project, just so you can giggle when she starts talking about her "hypopesis". 

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I am having a dilemma. S and his nephew are having a lot of fun lately connecting the Wii's and playing Mario Kart online. So here we are the four of us (his wife plays too) sitting there playing. I ALWAYS LOOSE!!!! I am so tired of it! I just gave up the other night and just spent the last few minutes seeing how many time I could drive off of a cliff. Is this just me being a poor sport? I just have to say that no one wants to play anything if they are ALWAYS  the looser! I haven't played the game itself in several days because I am just so tired of looking at the stupid thing. So tell me am I just being a jerk or what?

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Starting today I am going to do everything within my power to be more healthy. I got up a half an hour early this morning to exercise. I am announcing this on here because I want witnesses to what I am doing. So if anyone has any advice that would make things easier please let me know, I could certainly use the encouragement!

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1. 88 lines about 44 women- The Nails

2. Glamour Boys- Living Colour

3. Higher- Creed

4. The Bottom Line- Big Audio Dynamite

5. Gloria- Laura Branigan

6. Ice Cream- New Young Pony Club

7. Love Song- The Cure

8. Was it Something I Said- OMD

9. I Ran- A Flock of Seagulls

10. Sister Christian- Night Ranger

Love this quote

 I stole this quote off of someone's blog and decided to post it because it is very true. Sorry it is all in caps I haven't figured out how to fix that yet. 

"WOMEN OF GOD CAN NEVER BE LIKE WOMEN OF THE WORLD. THE WORLD HAS ENOUGH WOMEN WHO ARE TOUGH; WE NEED WOMEN WHO ARE TENDER. THERE ARE ENOUGH WOMEN WHO ARE COARSE; WE NEED WOMEN WHO ARE KIND. THERE ARE ENOUGH WOMEN WHO ARE RUDE; WE NEED WOMEN WHO ARE REFINED. WE HAVE ENOUGH WOMEN OF FAME AND FORTUNE; WE NEED MORE WOMEN OF FAITH. WE HAVE ENOUGH GREED; WE NEED MORE GOODNESS. WE HAVE ENOUGH VANITY; WE NEED MORE VIRTUE. WE HAVE ENOUGH POPULARITY; WE NEED MORE PURITY."

~MARGARET NADAULD

Update

A couple of months ago I posted a blog about my daughter Bug. Since then we have had some updates and some considerable improvement. To recap Bug has what are called complex partial seizures. That means that her seizures are only in one very small part of her brain, and are practically undetectable. The only reason we even figured out that she was having them at all is because she had an amazing 4th grade teacher who noticed them and was actually smart enough to say something to us. Her last EEG showed that she was having them about every 5 to 20 minutes, and they only last about one to two seconds at a time. This isn't the kind of seizures where she is laying on the floor and twitching around, all she does is kind of stare off into space and sometimes blinks and touches her head. Like I said practically undetectable. In fact she was misdiagnosed a few years ago as having ADD instead which I guess is a common problem. 

Flash back to one year ago... Bug is on a medication that was a complete nightmare. This particular caused some massive cognitive dulling. To put it simply, we lost Bug for a while. She forgot how to read (her favorite thing, after mario kart that is) she dropped down to a first grade math level, and she forgot how to use the bathroom properly. She was in 4th grade and having to use pull-ups all day every day. The worse part though was that she was gone. Bug has this wonderful bubbly personality, and all of the sudden it was like she had been replaced by a monster. The good part was that it was short lived, the bad part was that this happened right in the middle of the school year. So the child that was already behind simply because she is who she is, is now even further behind. Thanks to some wonderful pieces of legislature that were passed several years back (No Child Left Behind) we aren't even allowed to hold her back to actually learn the things that she missed. 

So the whole point of this particular post was not to whine but to update. Part of the problem that she has is an incontinence issue. We have believed for some time that it is related to the seizures, but the doctors have not been convinced. This particular issue comes and goes so it is hard to decide either way. She had a urologist she sees and is on medication for this, but it doesn't really work very consistently. She was having a great deal of problem with this issue a few months ago and it just kept getting worse. We finally took her back into the urologist and he increased her medication but it didn't seem to be helping. So we took her back into Neurology instead. We explained the problem and how we thought it was related and they decided to increase that medication as well. BINGO! Wow, the change was almost instant! She has always had a problem with bed wetting and I figured that if she was related to me that was just a given, but the day time wetting was very frustrating. Well both of those things have pretty much cleared up. We went from getting her up three times a night to go to the bathroom to only doing it once a night now, and the day time wetting has almost completely stopped. I can't tell you how much of a relief this has been for us. I know it is really helping her to feel better as well. The best part is that there has been a significant improvement in her school work as well. We didn't expect that! This really is an answer to a lot of praying. Once again we owe a debt to medical science! Who knew!

TV time

So here is what I am watching this week. Boring I know but it was a long day and  I don't want to think about what to blog about right now. 

Crusoe

24

American Idol

Leverage

Lost

Law and Order

Life on Mars

Burn Notice

CSI

Eleventh Hour

Monk

Psych

Battlestar Galactica

The Office 

Bonus: Rerun's of The West Wing (Loved this show!)

So if anyone wants to talk to me about any of these feel free. I love talking about what I watch.

Random ten friday

So my friend Sher said I should do random ten Friday with her so here goes. (I am not exactly sure what the ten is for though?)

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Why is it in the amazingly technological world we live in that they can put space probes on Mars, we can send messages around the globe at light speed but there is no such thing as a decent speaker phone? I mean why hasn't anyone fixed this little bit of technology? It is the same problem over and over. You say something and whoever you are talking to says something and inevitable you end up talking over each other and neither of you hears what the other is saying. We have cell phones that will reach almost anywhere in the world today but if you use the speaker phone on it you are screwed! 

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I have found the taste of evil. I went to the doctor yesterday (for the third time in the last three weeks) and he put me on prednisone  this is the most evil and foul tasting drug on the market. I hate being on it. It makes everything I eat taste just like it too. S has figured out how to take it so you don't taste it. You fill your mouth with some kind of liquid, you put the pill on a spoon (making sure not to touch it) you drop it from the spoon into the liquid in your mouth and then swallow very quickly. I tried it and it worked. Lou was on this for about three months this summer and it was awful it made her all puffy and swollen I was really glad that my camera was broken so we didn't have any pictures of her like that. The thing is that even with it being that foul I am feeling 100% better this morning. Coughing still but able to breath a lot easier. 

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I seriously need to get away! I was just thinking that it has literally be years since I went anywhere without husband and kids. I really do love going places with my family our vacations the last couple of years have been really great, but I haven't been anywhere with anyone else. Unless you count a couple of girls nights here and there. I would love to just go and lay on a beach somewhere and relax. Especially since my health has been so bad lately, I think I could really use the time off and the sun. NEVER GONNA HAPPEN! I know quit dreaming!

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My frustration with working retail is growing rapidly! People are just so frustrating, they are making me nuts. (OK more than usual.) I need a job where I can get to work at 9 am and leave at three and where if my kids are having a problem or are sick they don't mind if I leave. Anyone know of a job like this. Yea I know... in my dreams... again.

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OK so I just got what the ten thing is...

1. Small town Boy- Bronski Beat

2. Violet Hill- Coldplay

3. Oscar Wild- Company of Thieves

4. Underneath- Alanis Morissette

5. Hit Me Baby One More Time- Britney Spears (it is the one and only one of hers I have and I will never admit to liking it in public)

6. Tempted- Squeeze

7. What I am- Edie Brickell

8. Sorry- Daughtry

9. A View to a Kill- Duran Duran

10. How Can You Mend a Broken Heart- Bee Gees

3 AM

Its 3 in the morning and I am up again, sick again, tired again, and all together frustrated again. I just can't seem to get well. I have bronchitis for the second time this month. Plus I have thrush in the back of my throat. For those that don't know what that is, it is a yeast infection in your mouth. Now hold on it isn't what you think... it is a side effect of my asthma prescription. So for those of you who were about to scream TMI just relax. Yes this is a normal side effect and yes I was warned that it could happen. I am on something for it but it doesn't seem to be working, so tomorrow I will be on the phone, again, to the doctors office trying to make yet another appointment. My third in the last month. I usually get sick this time of year, but for some reason this year things are worse. I just don't know what I am doing wrong. I just can't win. Honestly it is hard not to be depressed when you are sick constantly. I have been trying lately to have a more positive attitude but it is getting difficult. All I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep until about May. 

S has been a real trooper about this. He has taken really good care of me. Now he is sick though and I feel really bad for him. He doesn't get sick often but when he does it really wipes him out. He has spent the last 24 hours pretty drugged up, and so far it seems to be helping. Unfortunately he isn't as good at expressing how he feels as I am (in other words he doesn't whine about it constantly) so it is hard to tell. Or maybe it is just that I have been spending so much time wallowing in my own self pity that I haven't noticed. I know... I suck! (See there I go thinking it is all about me again!)

Alright enough of that I found this link I thought was funny. At least I can still laugh. Just not without coughing myself to death. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXLHWmjA5IE

365 pictures

S has decided he wants to do a picture a day project for a year, however instead of doing self portraits like everyone else he has decided to do pictures of me. I am just enough of a narcissist to go along with this project idea. I don't really like looking at these because instead of seeing the good things I just see the flaws. He says that he isn't going to let me look at them any more if I don't stop it. For years I was always the one behind the camera, not because I was the best at taking the pictures, but because then I didn't have to be in front of it. I realized eventually that I wasn't in any pictures at all and reluctantly relinquished that duty. For a long time I was the one in the picture that was not looking at the camera or had my hand up in front of my face. I realized this was also not very good because I just came off looking stupid. I have finally given myself up to the camera and do my best to look normal instead. I think it has worked to my advantage, mostly because now I don't get harassed about how I look in pictures any more. Anyway here is the link for anyone interested.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/emanhaud/sets/72157612695362822/

In search of a good book...

I love to read! There was a time when you would never see me without a book in my hand. I am particularly fond of fantasy books. Anything that will give me a break from reality. I tell you this so that you will grasp the significance of this statement. I don't think I have read a book in several months now. Probably close to three or four. I do not look at this as a lofty accomplishment, in fact I am a little ashamed to admit this. Lately it seems that I just can't find one that I can sink my teeth into. I went through the whole Twilight phase a while back and I re-read a lot of things that were familiar, but I don't think I have read a new book for quite some time. Some of my problem is that age is starting to catch up with me. I lay down to read, and I am suddenly waking up two hours later. I can't open a book without falling asleep. I remember when I was a kid and I could read all night without getting tired at all. What is happening?! I am reading a book right now that I really didn't like when I started it, and given the choice I probably would have just given it up. However I am reading it for my book club so I guess I just need to persevere and finish it. Part of the problem is that I don't like books that are too realistic, or have too much injustice in them. This book is set in the south in the 60's so as you can imagine it has plenty of both. I read to get away from reality, not to be smacked in the face with it. 

I have to say I love books, I miss them. I have been almost in mourning for them the last few months. It is like loosing an old friend. The problem is that I have no one to blame but myself. Friends don't stick around if you don't at least give them a call to talk. I have a stack of books that I could read, and if I run out I am sure that my husband has about a million suggestions just off the top of his head. I am spending way too much time online lately, and I have been working quite a bit too. But neither of these are good excuses. I guess I just need to find the time and put the effort into getting back into reading. No time like the present, right.....

TV time

I love this time of year. All my shows come back on. I am a total TV nerd. I love watching TV and I could probably tell you what show is on every night of the week. I have a particular weakness for Sci fi and spy shows and I guess cop shows too. So this week is a great week for me. Battlestar Gallactica and Burn Notice are both coming back on, as well as a long list of others. So here is what I am watching this week. 

Monk

Flashpoint

BSG

Phych

The Big Bang Theory (If you aren't watching this you need to start)

24

American Idol (cheesy I know but I love it)

Leverage

Lost (woo hoo!!!)

Law and Order

Bones 

The Office

Eleventh Hour

Burn Notice

I know that sound like a lot of TV but just realize that I start watching at 8 at night after my kids are in bed and am getting plenty of exercise too, SO THERE!

My Music

I have decided to keep a log of my favorite new songs. Some are new, some I just haven't heard for a long time, so they are new to me again. Anyway this is what I am listening to this week.

Thats Not My Name- The Ting Tings

Lazy Eye- Silversun Pickups

Ricochet- Shiny Toy Guns

Whoo! Alright-Yeah... Uh Huh- The Rapture

Pure Morning-Placebo

Electric Feel- MGMT

Sex on Fire-Kings of Leon

Oscar Wilde- Company of Thieves

Black Metallic- Catherine Wheel

Around the Bend- The Astroid Galaxy Tour

Dakota- Stereophonics

My Imortal- Evanescence

My Hero- Foo Fighters

Someone to Love- Fountains of Wayne

Geraldine- Glasvegas

Out of Control- Oingo Boingo

Black- Pearl Jam

Broken- Seether and Amy Lee

I Turn My Camera On- Spoon

Take Out the Trash- They Might be Giants

Get used to this post, I am going to be doing this for a while. By the way this will be posted on Itunes as an Imix under the label Sarah's Life. 

Random stuff

I have a sick kid again. She kept us up all night coughing. Is it bad that by the time we woke up for the millionth time I was a little upset. I know this makes me look really selfish, but sometimes it is really hard to maintain ones patience at 2 am. She is home from school today and that means that I have had to miss the lunch that I had planned. I even traded my shift that I was scheduled to work today to go to this lunch. Some thing about this is ironic to me. I am missing my lunch with other moms of autistic kids because of my autistic kid... huh. 

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I have decided that I need to create my own list of things that must go. The local radio station that I listen to does this and I really like it, so here goes.

1. Not having a fence. We have a dog and no fence and no dog door. This means that he must be tied to a lead every time he goes outside. I have a tendency to leave him on the lead inside too because he stays in the kitchen too. So I am constantly unwinding him from around the table legs and the trampoline. He has even learned how to go between the porch steps.  This must stop soon!

2. Junk food, it seems that no matter how much I get rid of there is still some around. I am very tempted lately by it, mostly because of boredom. It seems like the times that I over eat the most are when I am alone. It is like an alcoholic secretly drinking by themselves. I guess I just don't have enough to do. 

3. Working on Sunday. I work retail and it is one of those unavoidable things that occasionally you work on Sunday. I absolutely hate this, it is probably the one thing that I hate the very most. I have had to do it the last two weeks in a row. Come to think of it, I would be happy to work every week day if I could just get my weekends off. That sounds too much like a normal job though and I don't seem to be qualified for one of those. 

4. Illness, I think I have covered that enough in this blog. 

5. Three hours of homework every night, enough said. 

6. Why is it that the cough medicine that worked fine last week doesn't work today? 

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So here is a question. Is it bad to ignore someone who keeps trying to be a friend on facebook. There are a couple of people that I know from the past that keep inviting me to be their friend and I keep ignoring the invitation. Part of the problem is that they are the type that always have to interfere in other peoples conversations. I wonder if anyone that I am currently friends with feels that way about me?

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Do you ever get tired of being cheerful. Sometimes I just want to wallow. Sometimes I want to turn on the most depressing music I own and be left alone in a dark room Is that really too much to ask for. (Can you tell I didn't get my recommended amount of sleep last night?)

My Husband Rocks!

An acquaintance of mine was kicked out of her house on Christmas Day, by her husband who served her with divorce papers. She and her three kids are now living in a shelter. This prompted me to call my husband and tell him that he is the greatest guy ever, and I meant it. Next month I will have known my husband for 16 years. S and I had a very interesting and short courtship. I would just like to reminisce for a while about the way we met, because I am feeling particularly pleased with him right now. 

I was working at the Church Office Building when I was 18, right out of high school. I had just been through a particularly hard break up and was attempting to date again. My friends Alissa and Kirk had just announced to everyone at work that they were engaged. Alissa and I were having this discussion about how everyone we knew had gotten married right out of high school. She said that her new fiance only had one friend left that wasn't engaged or married. In my enthusiasm to be dating anyone and everyone I said "OH! Set me up with him!". I swear to this day that I don't have a clue where these words came from. There was even a guy in the room that I had a huge crush on and was anxiously trying to date. (He wouldn't get involved because he was going on a mission soon and didn't want to leave someone behind.) It was like someone took over my mouth and those words just came flying out of their own volition. I immediately regretted saying this but didn't take it back either. Well the next day she came into work and asked what I was doing that next weekend. The funny thing is that at that time everyone was setting me up with their friends. S was the second of three blind dates in as many weeks. I had this rule that I wouldn't go out with someone unless I talked to them on the phone first. So she had him call me and we talked. I knew right away that we would get along really well. He had a very easy going personality and he was funny, which is a huge plus for me. 

We arranged our first date and the night of the date he came to pick me up. I opened the door and about fell over. He was a huge nerd! He was wearing black dockers with white tennis shoes. I had never seen anyone do this! He had on this horrendous plaid shirt and he was so skinny! I tried to be polite and remember that we got along really well on the phone. We went to his friends cabin in Brighton with a very large group of people. Of the 20 people ther the only ones that I knew were the couple that set us up. Right away S and I had this great chemistry. He was so funny! He was really cracking me up, mostly making fun of me! I am one those people who is always being made fun of so I was really used to it and it actually put me at my ease. I did get a few shots in myself and he didn't seem to mind either. The ability to laugh at yourself had always ranked pretty high with me. He made fun of the way that I toasted marshmallows, he cheated at cards and he was genuinely funny when I told him how old I was. It got so that he was teasing me so much I started asking if anyone else wanted to give me a ride home. People were asking us how long we had been dating. When we told them that it had been about thirty minutes they were surprised and said that they assumed that we were engaged. The really funny thing is that the couple that set us up, and knew both of us pretty well, knew right away that we were hitting it off well, but S's friend who was there and I had never met before thought we would never date again. I believe his exact phrase to his girlfriend was "What was with S's date?" I do believe that if he had asked me to marry him that night I probably would have said yes. We went out a for a few weeks and I started to get a little nervous about what his intentions were. I sat him down about two weeks into dating and very clearly stated that I had been hurt before and didn't want to begin a serious relationship right away. I was just looking to have some fun and that I really did like dating him. He was very cool about it! We were engaged three weeks later! The funny thing is that I don't think I meant it. I don't think I was trying to avoid a commitment I think I was just trying to convince myself that what I was feeling for him wasn't real, that I was just on the rebound. Once I finally figured out that what I was feeling was genuine things went a lot smoother. We were engaged after only 5 weeks of dating and I have to say that it has always felt right. I have never doubted that he is the right one for me. We just fit! 

On a side note we figured out after we were married that we had actually met once before that first blind date. On Halloween the previous year I went to a work party with my boyfriend at the time. We were watching a movie that I brought and no one was paying attention to the movie, they all thought it was boring (Hitchcock's Rear Window, boring I think not!). In fact the only thing that everyone did seem to have any interest in was teasing me and, throwing Dum Dum suckers at me! They were doing it all night! Even some nerdy guy, that one of the guys I worked with brought with him, was doing it. He was with a date and he was of absolutely no interest to me. His name was S. 

Oh well

So I have found all kinds of old friend on facebook lately. I have been chatting with several of them lately as well as some new friends. So tell me what you all think, is it OK that I feel badly that one of them has stopped talking to me? It isn't  like this person was a huge part of my life, but I do feel kind of bad that they aren't talking to me anymore. I guess it just comes back to how I feel about myself, that I am not really worth being friends with or that I am just a little too weird. I have lots of other friends, even ones that I actually see in person not just on facebook, I know shocking isn't it. I have an awesome husband and lots of wonderful people in my life. So why is this bothering me? Why can't I just let it go? It certainly does some damage to my idea of myself worth. It isn't like I have never met anyone that didn't like me, because I have. I should just forget it... right?

Laughter helps

I have realized that I have been really negative lately, so I am going to do my best to make my life more positive. So here is something that will make you laugh, because I do believe that laughter is the best thing to improve your outlook on life. 

Why Did the Chicken Cross the Road?

SARAH PALIN: Before it got to the other side, I shot the
chicken, cleaned and dressed it, and had chicken burgers for
lunch.

BARACK OBAMA: The chicken crossed the road because it was
time for a change! The chicken wanted change!

JOHN MC CAIN: My friends, that chicken crossed the road
because he recognized the need to engage in cooperation and
dialogue with all the chickens on the other side of the
road.

HILLARY CLINTON: When I was First Lady, I personally helped
that little chicken to cross the road. This experience makes
me uniquely qualified to ensure right from Day One that
every chicken in this country gets the chance it deserves to
cross the road. But then, this really isn't about me.

GEORGE W. BUSH: We don't really care why the chicken crossed
the road. We just want to know if the chicken is on our side
of the road or not. The chicken is either against us or for
us. There is no middle ground here.

DICK CHENEY: Where's my gun?

COLIN POWELL: Now to the left of the screen, you can clearly
see the satellite image of the chicken crossing the road.

BILL CLINTON: I did not cross the road with that chicken.
What is your definition of chicken?

AL GORE: I invented the chicken.

JOHN KERRY: Although I voted to let the chicken cross the
road, I am now against it! It was the wrong road to cross,
and I was misled about the chicken's intentions. I am not
for it now and will remain against it.

AL SHARPTON: Why are all the chickens white? We need some
black chickens.

DR. PHIL: The problem we have here is that this chicken
doesn't realize that he must first deal with the problem on
this side of the road before it goes after the problem on
the other side of the road. What we need to do is help him
realize how stupid he's acting by not taking on his current
problems before adding new problems.

OPRAH: Well, I understand that the chicken is having
problems, which is why he wants to cross this road so bad.
So instead of having the chicken learn from his mistakes and
take falls, which is a part of life, I'm going to give this
chicken a car so that he can just drive across the road and
not live his life like the rest of the chickens.

ANDERSON COOPER, CNN: We have reason to believe there is a
chicken, but we have not yet been allowed access to the
other side of the road.

NANCY GRACE: That chicken crossed the road because he's
guilty! You can see it in his eyes and the way he walks.

PAT BUCHANAN: To steal the job of a decent, hardworking
American.

MARTHA STEWART: No one called me to warn me which way that
chicken was going. I had a standing order at the Farmer's
Market to sell my eggs when the price dropped to a certain
level. No little bird gave me any insider information.

DR SEUSS: Did the chicken cross the road? Did he cross it
with a toad? Yes, the chicken crossed the road, but why it
crossed I've not been told.

ERNEST HEMINGWAY: To die in the rain, alone.

GRANDPA: In my day we didn't ask why the chicken crossed the
road. Somebody told us the chicken crossed the road, and
that was good enough.

BARBARA WALTERS: Isn't that interesting? In a few moments,
we will be listening to the chicken tell, for the first
time, the heart-warming story of how it experienced a
serious case of molting and went on to accomplish its
lifelong dream of crossing the road.

ARISTOTLE: It is the nature of chickens to cross the road.

JOHN LENNON: Imagine all the chickens in the world crossing
roads together, in peace.

BILL GATES: I have just released eChicken 2008, which will
not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important
documents, and balance your checkbook. Internet Explorer is
an integral part of eChicken 2008. This new platform is much
more stable and will never crash or need to be rebooted.

ALBERT EINSTEIN: Did the chicken really cross the road, or
did the road move beneath the chicken?

COLONEL SANDERS: Did I miss one?

Received from Stephen.

AGAIN!!!

I am sick again. No big surprise there. The problem is that I can't just be plain old sick, there always has to be something else too. This time it started out bad. Most of the time if I get a chest cold it starts in my head first, this time I skipped that step all together. I started coughing a few days ago and within a few hours it ballooned fully into bronchitis. I have to admit that if I had been taking my advair like I should be things wouldn't be as bad right now, but nothing I can do about that, accept start taking it now. The problem is that I was already sick when this started, female issues (I know TMI, but its my blog) so I was already pretty uncomfortable. Then you add the coughing and that is when things got out of hand. I started running a fever at night and getting chills. I was taking care of my kids because they were sick so I wasn't taking care of myself, that never ends well. After three nights of that S put his foot down and started dosing me with Ibuprofen, and making me take my inhalant. That was when the stomach pains from my endometriosis (sp?) kicked in. These are pretty fun, it hurts when I eat and it hurts through my entire abdomen. Time for another laproscopy (sp?) I guess. When I finally gave up and asked for a blessing I was in so much pain I thought I was going to die. S said some really beautiful things to me in the blessing and I did start feeling better right away. I went to the doctor the same day and found out of course that it is viral. This is what I hate about the instacare, if I saw my regular Doc, who knows that I get really sick from bronchial viruses because of my asthma he would have just given me something for it, but a weekend doctor is not familiar with my problems and doesn't care. I actually was starting to feel a little better last night, however my throat was a little sore, probably from all the coughing... right? This morning my throat is killing me! I can barely talk and it is really painful when I do. I no longer have my tonsils, which is a good thing because I have a feeling they would be cutting off my breathing even more if I did. It just doesn't seem fair. Talk about adding insult to injury. I DON'T WANT TO BE SICK ANY MORE!!! I am tired of this. When I am done feeling sorry for myself I will let you all know!