I am afraid that my last post was a little misleading. I am afraid I give people the impression that I hate my life and hate being a parent. Some have even got the impression that parenthood has made me miserable. I would like to dispel this myth. I love my life! I love my children! I love my husband! I am one of the luckiest people I know, because I have everything I always wanted and prayed for. I think people hear each other complain occasionally and assume that whatever they are complaining about is what they hate about life. Sometimes even the things we love make us crazy. People frequently think that marriage and kids should equal "happily ever after", well it doesn't.
Marriage is work!
If you start out your marriage assuming that the hard part is over you are sadly mistaken. Children have a way of making your marriage even more work and if you don't already have a firm foundation in your marriage then they can certainly rip it apart. I think the fact that I am still married to the amazing man that I fell in love with 16 years ago proves that we do have a firm foundation, not only that but we continue to work on that foundation so that it will not crumble away from lack of care. Neither my husband or I are not perfect, and if there are those out there that have assumed that we think we are, then they have mislead themselves, because we never claimed to be. I have had a difficult life since becoming a mother, but that doesn't mean that I do not enjoy being one.
It does not make me unhappy!
In fact it is the most amazing thing I have ever done it my life. It has taught me more and brought me more joy than I could have ever imagined. There is a line in my Patriarchal blessing that says "The greatest blessing that women have been given upon this earth is to be able to create children. You will never realize what love really is, until you have a child of your own as part of your own body." The most amazing gift I have ever been given is my children.
That doesn't mean that I don't get frustrated, every parent does!
My children have never been easy to take care of.
I have had an infant for 11 years now.
I get exhausted,
on a daily basis, but these feelings are fleeting. The feelings that last are the ones of
and contentment, but
No one feels content while trying to remove bodily fluids from their carpet!
I would ask this of those that expect me to enjoy every minute of every day...
Do you do the same?
Don't you get angry sometimes?
Don't you want to scream "Why me"?
I think the normal people are the ones that do want that question answered sometimes. If you don't then well.... I guess you are a stronger person than I am, but that doesn't make you better than me it just means you have different weaknesses.
Maybe pride is one if them!
I guess what I am trying to say is, don't judge me from one post. Don't assume you know me because we see each other for a couple of hours every few months. Everyone struggles, and just because I have a celestial child living in my home with me doesn't mean that it is easy to remember that all the time!